I don’t know about you, but no matter how much I kid the world, I crave perfect stories. You know the kind that fairytales are made of and every time you retell it people go “aww, that is perfect!”?!
I have gone around often, declaring how I love our messed up world and it’s imperfections and how only imperfections are perfect, but all the while I have secretly hoped and prayed for perfect moments in every story I have ever lived.
Am I a hypocrite, then ? Well, maybe! But I am not the only one, am I?
Don’t we all try to validate our stories with meaning and sense and some sort of a ‘coming to a full circle’ ending ? Yes, we know better, we know that the best stories are tragic, the best loves unrequited, but is knowing that enough to satiate our need for ‘perfect’ and ‘forever’ and ‘happily ever after’?
Believe me you, I am true in my appreciation for the universe’s sense of irony and the poetic justice that often flatters our sombre tales.But, inspite of that, every time I walk into a new chapter in my life, I can’t help but secretly and a bit perversely perhaps, hope for a perfect set of firsts that all link together to make absolute sense.
But it doesn’t.
That’s not ‘eureka' material though, we already know that. But somehow I never admit that, at least not to myself.
I have always told myself that we live in our own 21st century version of fairytales and it does have a perfect happy ending, after all.
Wait, I am not saying life isn’t a fairytale. I am saying perhaps it is not the fairytale we think it is.
Okay go back to all the fairytales that you have ever read, heard, overheard or maybe wrote.
If we cut out the prince and the princess and the ‘once upon a time’ and the ‘happily ever after’ the perfect kiss and the prince rescuing the princess…yeah so basically almost all of it, what are we left with ?
In some or any or every form. Love.
Parental, Romantic, Friendly, Humanitarian……Love.
So what I am saying is that maybe, love and love only, is our fairytale.
That this monumental emotion, incapable of definition, is perhaps all the salvation we need.
Whether it is your family, your friends, a legitimate love interest, or just your pet, you have been, are and will be loved, by at least one living being.
And that there, is your perfect story. That is all you need to tell, all anyone needs to know.
In the mean time I will continue to go about my life faltering, breaking, falling, collapsing, hurting, crying, howling, smiling, kidding, laughing….living.
But when they write my story, if they say “…and she was loved”, hope you’ll know that I have lived a fairytale.